April...

Whats up.. so its April now, and im gunna be 22 on the 5th, im getting kinda sorta old.

well my family plans on leaving to north carolina in the next few months and i dont know what im gunna do, i plan on getting my own place but right now i dont have the money power to. Life right now isnt the greatest. Tj is working as much as he can and still its not enough money. Oh and my car is like falling apart. well the outside looks wonderful, the inside engine... isnt! sucks!
my job sucks i need a new one like ASAP! everyone is like you make good money yeah i make good money but im miserable! i dont feel comfortable when i go to work. im always up tight and ready for something to happen and i dont like working like that. i rather work in a factory then doing what im doing right now. Anyways, april fools just passed, and no one really knew it was April Fools day! sad huh?

well ... yeah there isnt anything really exciting going on here, except nothing! same ol same ol, me and TJ are doing great, i love him sooo much im really really happy i found him again! ooooo baby i love you!!!

Christmas Day!

Well, this year has been a crazy year. But its been awesome!!! I found my long time Jr high crush again!! Thats been the highlight of my year! Im so happy! Christmas is like always.. nothing since we have never in my life once celebrated it. So its just been another normal day for me. I stayed the night at Bonnies house which they got home at like 4am. so me and my man just watched movies and then fell asleep.. lame i know but hey what more can i do... Then Macho pops up this morning and takes him away from me...:( so i just went home to catch some more sleep.. boring christmas huh.. lol yeah well we had to work christmas eve tilll 11, which sucked and it was soo freakin cold outside when we left so there wasnt much i'd wanna do in the freakin cold. but it was nice to just go home and lay with my baby! Well... I get freakin paid friday!!! I need to get an oil change. bad! ive been waiting to long and my poor car is in need of some help. Then on Saturday im thinking of taking TJ out for a nice dinner and a movie or something of the sort, Maybe bring his son depends on the baby momma drama! But he deserves it hes an awesome boyfriend, he tries really hard, and i have no idea why hes already freakin awesome anyways!!! Well.. im gunna gets going... joyto the world! peace and love to all. and a happy new year!!! love yousssss xxooo

Snowed In!

Today sucked soo bad, there was soo much snow no one could see anything. So i stayed home. But its Sunday so i guess i was suppose to anyways. I just really miss my baby, I havent been able to spend anytime with him because im working 3p-12a. It really really sucks! Yesterday was the only day i got to spend quality time with him. Monday starts another work week... monday thru friday 3p to 12a! Im miserable without him. I love him so freakin much.


My friend Alexis that i used to go to school with her boyfriend works with me. His seat is right next to me. lol hes a goof ball. Good ppls. Danielle is working now too but her location is at the college for the next 4 weeks so i dont get to see her. Im at the head office. We got our badges and our clock in stuff. Im suppose to bring in my check for direct deposit. If i wanted to transfer to another state i can. IF i wanted to transfer to Australia since everyone knows thats my goal in life i could. The Corporate office is in Colorado, Denver i think. No.... i dont plan on tranfering anytime soon and if i did it would prolly be when TJ decides to move to FL ill transfer to over there to be with him. Until then... we will be here trying to get a place.

Well.... Anyone who read this check out Damien Rice " 9 Crimes" that song is freakin awesome im sure if u watch Greys Anatomy or Shrek 3 uve hurd it before. Believe me.. its a good song. Laters .. love u baby MUAHSSS XXOO

Its beginning to look alot like Christmas!

UGghh.. we had snow today, and really bad it was! Sucked driving threw it, i had to take TJ with me to pick up my brother from school cause i was so nervious, i couldnt see anything and i almost got hit like 3 times. Freakin retarted drivers! Anyways on to the good stuff Tj got a nother job its pretty much in the bag. well i got him the job where i work! Im sooo freakin excited! Now we can actually save enough money for his warrent and then get a place! Fuck the world. I hate what ppl have to say! Im in love with a wonderful man and if u cant see it, thats ur problem but nothing and no one is going to come in between us!
i had a Dr. Apt today, it sucked but i got some meds so i can get better i have to get X rays on my Knee. It was so cute TJ said that when im all old and my knee dont work no more that he will happily rub bengay on it for me! How freakin sweet!!! i love him so much! I cant wait till we get our place, He asked me today if i wanted to be his wife... im like baby i love you ill be ur wife! I wish ppl could see what i see in him. Yeah ok hes dramatic and can be an ass sometimes but who cant? Everyone can! He makes up for it. He makes me laugh soooo freakin hard, he makes me feel sooo damn hot! And i dont have to wear makeup all the time, i can throw my hair in a pony and thats fine he loves it.. lol Im so happy right now. i havent been hapy for such along time. i dunno what i was doing. The past 3 years have been a complete failure and in some ways a waste of time. I was fighting for a guy who... yeah really dont know why but lies! Who i feel in some ways doesnt truly know what love is. Which is ok alot of ppl dont know what it is or how to deal with it. When it hits you you know, and u know how to handel it when its real! I have my love right now and im not letting him go for anyone! I dont care cut me off! U cant stop my happiness! FUCK THE WORLD!!! :D


well.. i think iam having a reaction to my meds cause i just broke out with bumps all on my boob! I gotta go have my mommy look at them... laterssssss

Life is GREAT!

Everything is going wonderfully!! i have one of the best men in my life. Tj u are wonderful and i love you soo much! I dunno what i was doing without him.but im glad everything is how its suppose to be now!! I LOVE YOU BABY! YOu mean soo much to me!

Lastnight!

I had a awesome time lastnight. TJ was a lil pissy in the beginning cause hes getting tore up by fleas. but after he smoked a bowl and had 2 40's he was good! And drunk.. lol Danielle (Bonnie) and I did nails. I didnt feel like doin mine so i just did hers they came out good. But like always one had is better then the other. It was fun and Tony and my brother spent a while in the basement tearing apart a generator they seemed to have fun. It was calm and easy yesterday. Oh Hope is here from North Carolina, BLAHHHHHHH I saw her when i was taking Talisa home and she was talking a bunch of blarzark. But like TJ says gurls are allowed to play fake. And i agree, i play fake with people all the time. and im damn good at it. :D WEll im not sure whats going on today, ill prolly go and see my baby! maybe .... well i dunno im just really waiting for next weekend. He sounds really ampted about it. So he makes me wanna get there already!! The cutest thing was lastnight he said i got 3 days off straight for work, im like yeah... hes like I LOVE YOU SALEENA!!! all loud, im like I LOVE YOU TOO TJ! lol Silly gooose you! lol but he wouldnt stop yelling it.. lol hes such a corn ball! Well... im gunna get dressed and get my day started. LIke i said lastnight to you.... Im not holding my breathe! and you know who u are... byeszzzxxoo

On to new things.. Out with the old!!!!

Alright.... All this shit started on Sept. 28th 2007.... Tj and i got into a big fight.. about some stupid bitch named Vetto! So on the 29th i picked him up from work and we talked and hung out at that point things had gotten better. So we went to his boys house Tony and his gurl Bonnie AWESOME ppl!!! Well tell me why that stupid bitch calls my phone lookin for my man! No then try and disrespect me! No dont fly! Ive had enough chics starting shit and ruinin my relationships im not bouts to have another ugly ass bitch fuck wit me! Never again. Anyways! We squashed that skruby bitch and things between me and TJ are great. i havent been so happy in a long as time. And my new bestfriend Bonnie! Things are looking up! I cut Micheal off cause like everyone says a third party isnt needed. its just two of us.. thats how its suppose to be. Oct 20th is sweeties day and he gave me a lil present early. He shaved off his mustache!!! I was soooo happy, it was weird thou cause im not used to seein him without it. i kinda felt like i was cheating! lol but hey.. he still feels the same! :D So i think he wants to go out to a movie on sweeties day like a double date with Bonnie and Tony, but Bonnie is having a Pure Romance party the same day so im not sure all that can go down. But yeah. we will see he has some suprises up his sleeves. Well... im getting off here! im sleepy, time for my nap before class!! laters all you fuckin haterssssssss!!