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Yeah sooooo..... My family dont like TJ. and they arent warming up to him.. lol My mom knows the deal and she told me that if i dont st op hanging with him.. im lookin for trouble! OO WEll.. Im not lookin for it.. but if it comes to be ill deal with it. :D

So Johnnys tooth is all messed up and its been hurting him bad! So i got some stuff from my cuzin for it and i hope it works. I felt ba d his face was all swollen and stuff.. Poor boy! Im hoping ill see Andrea Soon. i miss her sooo much!! Thats my gurl.. one of the only gurls i really get along with. I guess its cause we both are like.. We dont get along with other gurls.. lol so we understand each other to that extent.

Went to the graduation Comensement on Thursday. It was really nice, I wanted to cry cause its like.. damn.. i was here not to long ago. Well.. ok 3 years but still it made me sad. Im getting really old. and my little sister who died would have graduated on that day. :( My mom really wanted to go for that reason. Elisa would be 18! I wonder what it would be like to have a lil sister of my own. Instead of adopting other 18 yrs olds as my sister. Its crazy. i think me andher would have been really really close.. Causing trouble together.. instead of me alone. Makes me ill. I understand to a certain extent what its like losing someone very special to you. I lost my Grandma when i was in 11th grade andi thought i was gunna lose my mind. But ive spent soo many years with her. And losing my sister.. i didnt even know her. I knew she didnt come home i was 3 years old. I didnt know what happened. TJ lost his son Isreal when he was 3 months old. I cant imagine how that feels. I know my mom still suffers on Elisa birthday. But his whole life fell apart when hislil boy died. His gurl went crazy things never where the same he says.. he lost her and his son I dont know.. i think that that should have brought them closer together. But in reality it didnt. I guess thats the only part of life that really scares me. Losing Someone that i made. Or like my husband. I dont know what i would do. You start to make your own life and it gets taken from you. Its not like you can start all over with someone new and just forget about what you had. That will always be a part of you, you will never forget the life u planned on having! Yeah thats why im so insistant on wanting to start my life early. So i have more time with my husband if something later on in life where to happen. Or maybe im just a worry wort! i unno ...

Well im here all alone at work till 1230 Then Tasha comes in. Im goint to pick up TJ when i get off work from work. I dunno whats gunna happen today, i think i might go home and take a nap. and maybe to the mall to look at cell phones. Cause i wanna get mine back,. Ive been soo lazy in getting one. But TJ and i Agreeed that we both need cell phones. Grrrrtaegissssssssssss!


Well im outta here :D

I wear my sunglasses at night!

I have been.... cause ive been doing alot of.. sneaking around lately!! Since iam forbidden to see TJ i have been sneaking to see him. I think my mom and dad kinda figure that im out with him when i say.. im gunna take a walk.. and i dont come back for like... uhhh a while. Im not sure exactly how things are going between us. We have seen each other everyday, and its been nice, but we arent talking about dating... When it comes to ppl asking me if im singel i always say no. Cause technically im not. There are many different aspects to consider when dealin with that question. But yeah... anyways. I am just hangin in here.. tryin to last.... Kinda sucks. but hey.. What can i do?

Interviewed!

Yesterday after i got outta work i went to pick up my lil cuzin Courtney and we went for a walk to TJ's place. I met his lil boy Xavier! Hes soo cute! hes 4 years old Hes adorable! he got that mean mug face like his dad but once hes around you for a few he starts to smile and its soo freakin cute! TJ was actin like a goof ball lastnight! Im like babe.. calm down! People are lookin at you like u crazy! He is when hes had a few good beers! But its ok i dont mind! My parents still dont want me with him. But i think they are starting to calm down about it, My mom basically knows that hes gunna be around me. I gotta get my own cell phone already, next good pay check im gunna go get one. Maybe 2 so that i can keep in contact with him and not have to Talk to Johnny everytime i need to talk to him. Kinda retarted huh. well.. yeah i dont have anything else interesting :D

Reunited with a past crush!!

Things are actually weird. I went to McDonalds the other day and i saw a old crush of mine... and now im his crush.. lol He flipped when he saw me! All i could do was laugh! I was suprised when he asked me for my phone number, i gave him the number to reach me. And he called! We talked from 9till 2 in the morning. It was actually a wonderfully awesome conversation. I couldnt stop smiling the whole entire time. Things are kinda crazy right now. Im still unsure of whats going to happen,and what i want to happen. His name is TJ. No TJ doest stand for anything.. its just TJ. I had a really really big crush on him when i was in Jr andhe was a senior. I used to help him with this Govt homework.. so he could graduate. He treated me like i was his lil sister, but now its not like that anymore. Im not really sure whats its like now! If i figure it would ill let you know.