Iam a LIAR!!

ok so i lied.... Iam keeping the guys in my life in my life.. im such a sucker! They can so easily work their way back into my heart... like nothing,anyways, This past weekend was nice, Got some sun... tanned... got a lil burnt, but im still looking fly! lol :P dont be jealous. You all can tan too:D Memorial Day was nice, My aunt Maria had a cookout so i had to spend the day with my family and without my good friend Mikey. But he called me and wanted to come down but when i told him it was at My cuzins...(angela) hes like nevermind! He dont like her very much!! lol For reasons that iam not going to display but we all know. Yup.... And yesterday i just chilled out around... Stayed outside for like a few good hourss in the sun! Me and my baby oil. Goodtimes... goodtimes!
Onto other things, My eyebrows have been such a pain! They got messed up When i moved to NC they lady jacked me up, so im still trying to get them back in good standings. Today was alot better then every other day ive tried. I hate letting them grow back cause i look so... hairy! i dont like it! Anyways, i was letting them for a 2 weeks grow and i think it did some good. Cause they are kinda ok now.. there still is some work to be done but its getting there. Iam letting my nails grow too.. Micheal wants me to get then done before i go to visit... So ill do it for him. But for now i think iam going to try and let mine grow. see how long i can get them on my own. My check is sooo going to suck for this week.. Cause i was short! And i have to pay rent. :D isnt like just wonderful! but after all that is done! The money i get is going into a savings account! :D Casue my FAT HEAD is bad at saving money!! lol
well... leaving.. for now!

Over Everything....

I have spend some good time in my life trying to make everything ok with certain ppl. As of now, im OVER IT! Iam so sick of trying to do things right and make ppl happy when they could give less then 2 fucks and a can of coke! Im done loving people. Family ok yeah i have to, The men in my life... DONE! I need someone who is gunna know what he wants, Who is gunna be a man! No a lil pussy whiped asshole! I know I sound really mean but oooo well! Im done with bein nice to the guys when all they do is play and treat me like shit! I have ruined alot of potential relationships for someone, and he could give to cares. Cause hes confused... Hes not sure what he wants. Well.. Im makin a desision for you. Leave me alone. Dont bother me with ur inconsistant emotions and your horney tendencies. Yeah.. sex is great. When its done right! And who knows what you can do, Ive given up on even caring! I know what its like to really really want someone back, I spend many years wishing i could have someone back, (D) and when i did... i realized no matter how many times we try or tried, there is something missing. I will never stop caring and missing and loving him, but im not gunna spend my life wondering if i should move on. or make the next step. I cant waste my time making things hard for myself. As i said yesterday while i was at work, Im not talking to u anymore! I cant deal with the issues you have. There are some (secrets) i can deal with and not say anything about cause they could ruin ur life and im good for them ok. im not gunna say nothing! But you make me feel like crap! All the time. You tell me u love me, which is fine, and u want me to believe you mean it. I dont. I cant. There is just somethings that have gotta change and u and i arent willing to change on a certain level. So be it! If you feel the need to talk to me about this.. or want to make things ok then u know how to get a hold of me. "But if u think that things can keep on going the way they are then let me freshen your memory. NO THEY WILL NOT CONTINUE THIS WAY! i wont let it. I will leave again and this time. No contact, No blogs, no texts nothing. And ill do it, as much as it will hurt me and drive me crazy cause ill miss you ill do it. Ill start me a fresh page like u never exsisted! You let me know what u want from me. And ill let you know what i want from you. On this note... im leaving ...